bigger than me

My life is falling apart ! I am going crazy slowly but surely, I might just lose my mid up in here! I have been taking a lot of shit from people. I can't take no more ! My feet hurt and my heart hurts. I'm beginning to believe I care to much for people. I just wish I didn't care as much and loved less. My heart is seriously broken and I can't repair it. I have done a lot of things I am not proud of that I need to talk to somebody about them. I have all these emotions bottled inside waiting to come out. I'm trying to become a better person but its HARD. Some days I don't even feel alive like I have missed the whole day. I have talked a good game and now I need to play it, all but one of my team players is missing and that's my mind. Thoughts about my foster brothers run through my mind like crazy ! I miss them sooooo much I can't take it. I worry about people I shouldn't worry about, things that don't concern me. I give to much and get nothing in return but a ass to kiss and a kick in the back !