Love, Laugh, Grow
Saturday, July 3, 2010
bigger than me
Monday, June 28, 2010
Real World..uugghh
I got a job (yay) and I start training to tomorrow (booo). I am very happy I get to leave this house tomorrow. I was about to go crazy in this house! I have cut ties with almost every friend I had. I simply don’t have time for BS! I am a go getter and I don’t like sitting on my ass doing nothing. My friends are the COMPLETE opposite. Last year was my first year in college and boy was it GREAT. I wasn’t on my grind like I should’ve been, because of my no good friends. See people hate when you do better than them. Instead of them encouraging me to do good in school, they just said forget school. I can walk alone in this big world; even though, my biggest fear is being alone. I don’t see me being successful if I keep this dead weight (no good friends) attached to my hip. I can’t blame them for all of my wrong doings because I have a brain too and I do share some fault. My sister and teachers have been telling me since I was little Miss Williams you are force to be reckoned with when you put your mind into something. So next year I’m going to be focus and do WHATEVER I have to do to succeed. I hate disappointing my sister because she is my biggest fan, my backbone, my one cheerleader in the stand, my protector, counselor, and my piece of mind. I sometimes wish I could go back in history and take back some of the bad things I’ve done to her. I wish I could make her proud just like she makes me proud everyday despite everything she’s gone through, she is a hard worker and I envy her. I wish I could have her strength to keep pushing on. I use to hate living in her shadow and being compared to her, but now I feel so flattered when people do it, even when people say we look alike (lol). But changing the subject I have goal list this summer !!!!
Goals
Get my car fixed
Get my car insured
Get a credit card
Lose 20 pounds
It’s a very short list, but it’s a start Roman wasn’t built in a day you know !!!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I left facebook for the summer
Thursday, June 24, 2010
A love I may never know...
I've always envied butterflies, they are so free and beautiful. No I always envied anyone who wasn't me. I have always been the type to hide emotions from my family, I was always labeled the comedian. I would rather hide in my room and cry, rather then to tell what was wrong with me. I was never a sad child, I guess that's why whenever I am sad around my family they try their hardest to break me out of my funk. I recently had a bad break up with someone I thought I was going to be with for a long time. I am not hurt because of the break up, but by some of the evil things that were said to me. First off, let me say facebook is now a GOSSIP SITE. But anyways, after I said "its over" he had a fit. He started arguing with on fb(facebook) how mature ? right? He talked about our private business which almost brought me to tears. I have never had anyone DISRESPECT me in such a way. I was hurt +5 and also disgusted in this person I thought was a friend to me. I thought he really cared for me at least a little. The reason I bring this up because I think about my favorite Paramore song "Exception" and how I thought he was. I thought I had found love but it was just another weak imitation of it. Love a word I may never know the meaning to or how it feels. Love a four letter word so easy to write and read, but so difficult to define or say. Love a hopeless dream of happiness. Love a word people live and die for. L O V E is pointless to me. Nothing last forever especially not LOVE but HATE is always around. Love is like a first born beautiful in the beginning and new, but once the other baby comes it is soon forgotten.
A bad hair day with swollen feet
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Some Fashion, Hair, Games & more =]
-I promised that I would show some of my fashion sense an eczema skin products.
-If you have eczema please ask your doctor about Derma-Smoothe/FS
-The store that I purchase my jewelry from is Forever 21, Claire's, and Target
-The turtle is from my grandma's house
-If you have any fun games for the wii please leave comment and what you rate the game and also the name of the game
-Clothes will be coming SOON !
-Also thank you for reading and enjoy =]
Shoes
Cheetah Print Shoes from Forever 21
From Dr. Jay's
Jewelry
Grandma's Turtle lol
Feather Earrings from target
Eczema Skin Care Products
Dermaisl
Loprox Shampoo
T/Sal Shampoo/Skin wash
Derma-Smoothe/FS
Eucerin
Hair (it looks a mess but I wanted to show off my tail and streak I will have a better pic soon)
Didn't know where to put this but my fav bow forever 21
Games
My babymama lol